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i seriously love wanda sykes. she is hilarious. she totally owns dane cook. [11 May 2008|09:24pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

We have U.S. soldiers being killed every day over in Iraq because of an unjustified war that Bush started. The economy is in the toilet. The education system is failing our kids. The deficit is out of control. However, instead of fixing any of this shit, the president focuses on nonproblems. We won't think about what is really going on if he makes us think that the real problems are steroids in sports, space travel, and gay marriage. You've got to be kidding me. Sometimes I feel like we're trapped on a bad Fox reality show, Joe President. He's not really a president. He's a construction worker. If he gets reelected, he gets a million dollars and we get screwed.

That random screening that they say they do at the airport? There's nothing random about the random screening at all. I know every time I fly, I get checked twice. They stop me at security, and then, they get me again at the gate. Once they actually made me go through the machine with the luggage. I'm like, "Man, this is ridiculous. This cannot be healthy, being all irradiated. What the hell is this?"

There is nothing random about it. You get to the gate, and they're standing there with a Sherman Williams paint chart. If your ass is darker than khaki, you gettin' searched. I've been searched so much I said the hell with luggage. I just put all my stuff on a hanger. "This is all I got, y'all. That's it."

i had a really nice mother's day dinner con mi familia. Expensive cheese and crackers, pasta, and flourless chocolate cake. yummy. Lots of laughing and talking. I saw a really powerful movie last night. The Visitor. It highlighted all the problems with our immigration system. Seriously everyone should see that movie. And see Under the Same Moon. Alright thats it for now. I have to go study for my physiology final. My last class left. What a relief to be done all my classes.

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[25 Apr 2008|02:53pm]
I live in townhouses where a two line street separates the two rows of townhouses. Well I dreamed that was a pool. And people were sitting on the cement and sitting on people's lawns in lounge chairs. And kids were in the pool in tubes and stuff. Also, my brother was walking around on the roofs of houses from house to house. My dad was really proud of him and was like. "Michael has been walking around on the roof this whole time. He found all kinds of different places up there." I was like "But he could fall." And my dad was like, "No he won't. He is strong and doesn't even have to exercise." (Cuz that dialogue makes sense. not.)(And dialogue is in red but I bet my life that it is spelled correctly. In fact, I just looked it up. Weird)

So another recent dream had my friend Belinda in it. I was visiting her at Georgetown but it wasn't really Georgetown. It was around this harbor with all these boats in it and it took a really long time to get to class because you had to walk all the way around the harbor to get there. Also, the dorms weren't really dorms but in these row houses that had no kitchen or living room. It was just rooms. They had to go eat in the cafe nearby to get food. When we were walking to class we had to go through grass and swamps and over rocks and stuff. In the row house there was a hallway connecting everyone's rooms but one. You had to go across a bridge made out of cardboard and tape. I almost felled and died trying to get across. Then I must of left because I came back to find Belinda's whole family eating dinner upstairs where there was all of a sudden a living room. I came to borrow some toasted bread because I was making French onion soup. I said, "I am so sorry I feel like I am always borrowing things. Please borrow something big like a TV so I don't have to feel so bad."

Another recent dream. I was living in this town where you weren't allowed to smile, wear bright colors, dance,sing, or ever be happy. My mother was in the dream and started to wear bright colors and smile. I was like, "Don't, you are going to be executed." Then I was suddenly in a house with two other people and I said I couldn't take it anymore. So we leave the house wearing yellow and bright colors and broke out in song and dance. We were singing and swinging out hands up. We were then scheduled to be executed soon. But we are like we are going to die so it doesn't matter now so we continued to wear bright colors, and smile and etc. Then the day of the execution I was like, " Oh no we are going to get executed." And one of the people I was with told us to follow her. We ended up in this room with an airplane. My friend was like, "I have a license." I said, "How is a license going to help." She said, "Well, I didn't tell you I had an airplane license." So we fly away in the airplane and we are being chased. We are flying through a path in the forest and my friend wasn't sure if going through the trees was a short cut and apparently she had a fifty fifty chance of being right. So we went through the trees and we are right. The path is hilly and covered in ice. We are following the path but trying not to touch the ice. Then we end up in this room and we are being chased again. I said, "Look there is a portal." I touch the wall and it turns into what looks like liquid plasma. I almost get caught but I just make it through the portal and escape. That is all I remember.

I could seriously write books on my dreams Sometimes i feel like i didn't even sleep because I have been adventuring all night. So a job this summer. The coffee shop closes during the summer so I need a summer job. I don't have one so I have no idea what I am doing. I was going to get hired at the human resources office at Goucher but I turned it down. I really didn't want to work in a cubicle when it is nice outside. I also interviewed at a camp and he said you basically already had the job unless you turn out to be a mass murderer. He said he just had to check my references. However, then I didn't hear from him. I sent him an e-mail and he never responded so now I don't think I do. So I have no idea what I am doing this summer. sigh. 
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[25 Apr 2008|12:35pm]
[ mood | groggy ]

So classes for next fall:
Positive Psychology
Statistical Methods in Psychology. But My psychstat from UMD wasn't accepted so I am petitioning to have it accepted.
Social Psychology
Personality Theory

I might switch painting to drawing though because I love drawing and that is what I am best at. I loved my drawing class so much this semester but both will be equally great. There is also clayworks that I really want to take. It is hard to choose just one art class. I am minoring in art but I haven't taken a lot of psych classes so I really need to take those. It is amazing to see how much better I got at drawing just from having 2 hours of drawing a nude model twice a week. At first I was really bad at drawing from life but in a short amount of time I got so much better. People are such amazing artists at Goucher. And I love my art professor. He is absolutely hilarious. He says the wackiest things. He is leaving sadly because he couldn't get tenure here. Social, Positive and personality theory sounds really interesting. I don't need personality theory but it is a prereq for Psychology of Dreaming which sounds so fascinating. Psychology of Dreaming is only offered in the spring semester every other year so it is the only time I can take it. I am excited I no longer will have to take Spanish. It is cool that my Spanish has gotten so much better since being in the class and the professor is hilarious but I just don't like the class. I hate being randomly called on and I am too lazy to get out of my seat for all the group activities. The class is just too intense and sometimes you are not in the mood for it. I actually really liked my english class this semester. I never thought I would say I loved English. I just really liked the professor and most of it was independent study so we didn't have class but I just met with my professor to go over my paper and keep making it better. The best part is we got to write about whatever we want. For the first essay I wrote about the negative portrayal of women in magazine advertisements. Specifically, that women are objectified in magazine ads. The next paper I wrote about Colony Collapse Disorder, where bees are mysteriously disappearing and they don't know why. They only have theories as to what the culprit might be. For my next paper we had to propose a change so I am arguing that illegal immigrants should be able to have driver's licenses. I got inspired to write about this after I saw "under the same moon" which really influenced me to be totally for immigrant rights. Everyone seriously should see that movie. This paper isn't as interesting as the other two and I got kinda bored with the topic. Also, there is just so much information to have to sift through and it is boring looking up the technical stuff as to how they can have driver's licenses without social security numbers, what information will be taken, how to avoid this making this vulnerable to terrorism, etc. So I will be glad when I finished this paper.

On a less positive note my migraines have been a lot worse. I got the level of medication tested in my blood and it was dangerously high so I had to decrease it so my headaches got a lot worse. It turns out though that I was supposed to wait ten to twelve hours after taking my medication to get the test so it was deceptively high. I didn't know I had to wait. So my doctor told me to start taking 150mg again and get it tested in two weeks. Doses that high are still rarely used. It has the potential to cause a heart arythmia and the medication makes my heart beat scarily fast sometimes when I am on a higher dose. The medication also made me gain over ten pounds, makes me tired and makes my hair fall out so I was trying to keep taking less but I can't stand this anymore. I am depressed all the time and feel awful. Working out really helps and avoiding things like chocolate really help but I still need to be on more medication. I triggered a migraine today because I woke up early and I can't avoid waking up early and I am bad about going to slleep before twelve so with more medication it won't be triggered so easily. I am so frustrated with these headaches. I would give nything for them to go away. I have an appt with an acupuncturist to get needles stuck in my head.

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[27 Jan 2008|06:16pm]
I am all moved in to my dorm at Goucher. Eek...scary! I have a whole room to myself but its still slightly scary cuz I used to live in the apartments about four blocks away and everyone I knew lived there but I was tired of the long walk so its still all very new. But I like living on campus better already and I love my new room. Its exciting and now I don't have to have a long walk in the cold. And I start my job tomorrow. I have to pull a 9 hour shift because I am training plus classes in the morning so I will be quite busy. I will learn how to make Lattes and things. I hope it goes okay and that there are no spills. My headaches have slowly been getting better. They are still really frustrating cuz I still have migraines everyday and more than anything I wish these things would go away. But I am now at a point where I can live with it. Cuz I am still functional now when I get them cuz they aren't as severe. I have been listening to Lily Holbrook. I bought one of her cds on itunes and I love it. I have also rediscovered evanescence. I get sick of artists but then I decide to listen to them like five years later. AIM is blocked in the dorm so I can't use it to to procrastinate. I guess that is why I am writing in livejournal. But livejournal isn't as good of a procrastination tool. 
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[08 Jan 2008|11:46am]
almost lover by A Fine Frenzy. Gorgeous song!
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[22 Nov 2007|11:56pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

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[19 Nov 2007|03:45pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

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[19 Nov 2007|03:26pm]
[ mood | headachy ]

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[19 Sep 2007|12:28am]
[ mood | chipper ]

haha that's funny.i'm a fan of post secrets

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[26 Jul 2007|07:35pm]
So lets see whats new in my life... I got ACCEPTED into Goucher College! I got Tori Amos tickets that are pretty decent. The tickets aren't bad for forty bucks each compared to the 300 dollars I have spent in the past for 3rd row seats. They are box seats so I assume that means balcony seats. They are off to the side but they are behind row g except up in the air so they are relatively close. I tried to get the vip tickets where you get that pass to meet her but it took so muchf waiting to proceed to each next step and kept getting stuck because there was so much traffic and every time i finally did confirm check out which was the last step it would take too long and time out or it would say there was an error. So I would get excited it was finally working and then it would get stuck. Finally there was so much traffic the site crashed but all the tickets had been sold. So I jsut got these ones from ticketmaster which is pretty good and they are cheaper so I am excited! I am not sure who I am going with yet cuz one of my best friends who is a big tori fan moved to georgia sadly but my mom's friend who adores tori wants to go so I might go with her or my cousin alex said she had wanted to go so maybe her but the important thing is I am going and I am going to see TORI!!!

my calc class is going pretty well. I got a 95 on the first test and a 90 on the second. the third test we just did was harder and stuff I had never did before. It was hard for a ccbc test. And I think I won't take an online course again because I don't do well learning that well so hopefully I didn't do too badly. I like got to the test this morning and it was like I totally forgot what I studied the day before so we will see. Even if I don't do so hot on this one I can do really well on this next and hopefully still get an A. So goucher still depends on a lot of things. I would love to go there cuz its an awesome school. Its very artsy and i love their small classes but I have to get financial aid and stuff so we shall see.

and there is a good chance I am going to the beach in new jersey the end of august because my friend invited me so yay. I will get to the beach afterall! and my migraines still suck. they are unrelenting no matter what i do. so I want to kill myself pretty much all the time because I feel like shit pretty much all the time cuz my head hurts. I also would love to be local to be around people i love cuz its been really hard with the migraines. and college park was never for me. its too huge of a school and I feel like you get lost and turn into a number. I like the small stmosphere of goucher. they say third times a charm! so time to go read harry potter. i just started it and its AMAZING!
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[03 Jul 2007|10:59pm]
I LOVE WANDA SYKES. you seriously do not get funnier than that. Everything she says is so true!
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[09 Apr 2007|01:56pm]
SO BEST DAY EVER. this is why i go to umd. on saturday they were filming national treasure 2 at my school. It was totally fate that I stumbled across this. I was dragging my friend Rachel to the gym and if she is the one that wanted to stop and see what was going on because I couldn't tell. I prob wouldn't have stopped. I got a picture with John Voight, and Diane Kruger, who btw is the most beautiful woman alive. I got the director's autograph, Diane Kruger's autograph, Nicolas Cage's autograph, and John Voight article. I also have pictures of Nicolas Cage though. I have pictures of the publicist who wa sa nice guy and chatted with us a while. So we stood there all day watching like paparazzi which is so fun. We missed that other guy signing autographs, the other main guy in it cuz we went to lunch. Good lunch though. I went to the co-op for the first time which is all natural food so I had this amazing hummus sandwich and vegan chocolate cookie. That way we got to warm up cuz it was freezing and we might be extras in this guy Zebo's movie that we met. It is sooo fun watching them do scenes too. I cannot wait for the new movie to come out because it is going to be so cool seeing my school and how the scene turns out after watching it done. There are a bunch of umd students that are in the movie as extras.  But it litereally took them all day to do this one minute scene where they walk down the steps of the linguistics building and talk outside. Next weekend they are filming in DC right near me so I might go and see it cuz its cool. Then RAchel and I watched fried green tomatoes at her suite and got sushi!! So fun day. Now I need to stop procrastinating and study. My study habits got so bad. Firstly, it has to do with the fact that I prob need counseling but I am stubborn, and I don't really like any of my classes except women's studies. I kinda miss the small classes at simmons. It's all intro classes so they are huge and informal I feel like. Well here are pictures!!
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[31 Jan 2007|09:52pm]
my friend rachel sent this to me and its great....
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[09 Dec 2006|03:43pm]
Everyone needs to watch v for vendetta because its amazing!
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[20 Nov 2006|01:50am]
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[06 Nov 2006|01:57am]
I am backpacking through Europe this summer. I know y'all are wicked jealous. hah wicked. my massachussets word has regularly entered into my vocabulary. i thought it was the funniest thing when i first came here but now i say it all the time. so i am soooo excited. its going to be amazing. finished my freud paper! i think its the best paper i have written so far this year. i hope i get a good grade on it. my classes for next semester i hope will be calc 2, stat, abnormal psych, and intro to studio drawing. lets hope i get hte classes i want. i am wicked tired though and laundry needs to me done. g'night.
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[18 Sep 2006|12:25am]
"You go back to the exorcist. I remember seeing that movie and thinking this poor girl. She is just having problems with her period and needs a shag. Why are they bringing a priest in. He can't do anything for her. Where's Robert Bland. He could help her out," Tori Amos.

HAHA gotta love Tori
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[02 Sep 2006|09:53pm]
I leave tommorow morning for college. Wish me luck!
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